I don't know why I want a relationship so badly right now. When I was up at school I was terribly opposed to the point that I was offended by couples holding hands. But now my poor hand feels incredibly empty and my heart feels alone. I want to have a boyfriend, I want to be a girlfriend. I want to dedicate all of my time to someone and feel a level of devotion. I want it to assumed that we will go out on Friday night. I feel like I have so much to offer someone, but he's not here.
I know that I'm only 19. I know that I have SO much time before I find my eternal companion. I know that there are so many things for me to do and accomplish. I know I know I know.
But sometimes it's not about what you know, it's about what you feel.
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I recently found your blog and started reading some of the posts. This one really stuck out to me. I feel that way all the time too. I have never had a relationship before or had a guy ask me on a date, so sometimes I think that has to do with it. I am also a hopeless romantic. But I totally know how you feel. I am only 19 too. I loved your last comment too about knowing all this stuff, but sometimes it isn't about knowing it is about how you feel.
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