simple joys: introduction

Things have been a little bit rough lately.

I won't go into detail, it's completely unnecessary. But suffice it to say, that as hard as I've been trying to fake it, the smile on my face has not been genuine and the feelings in my heart have been less than healthy.

Today when I was at work I sent a frantic plea to heaven to take away the bitter feelings I've been experiencing. For the rest of the day I was completely caught up in some of the little, simple things in my life that make everything worthwhile. I decided that I want to dedicate this blog to the recording of these simple joys. I need a fresh, new start. I need to move on with my life, grow up, get over it and find the joy that is in store for me. So hopefully I'll be able to facilitate that change by focusing on the small, happy things instead of being consumed by the sadness and pain.

So, to start, my simple joy for the day is the answer to prayers. Today it came in the form of constant daydreams for 8 hours. I am working full time right now, 8-5, and this week I have been completely by myself. I work in assembly so I have a lot to do with my hands and not much to do with my mind. It's easy to dwell on things in the past and for the last few days I have not been able to think about anything but the "what ifs" and the bad things that have gone down in the last couple of months. Today started out that way until my desperate call for divine help to dry the tears and just let me think of something else.

So I daydreamed. Vivid daydreams. About nannying in London and marrying an attractive Brit, about backpacking to Europe, traveling, being an EFY counselor next summer, transferring to the Y in January, meeting boys, flirting, and then I spent like an hour daydreaming about buying a car.

You wouldn't think that daydreaming could be an answer to prayer, but today it was. And the best part is that most of these daydreams will probably become my reality. That's a good feeling.

I have so much to live for. So much love and joy await me. It's just a matter of getting over this bump in the road. And I think that focusing on the simple joys will definitely help me do that.